This is a “love letter” written by a narcissist.  It’s a great read.

This week I had dinner with my old nanny.  She was part of our lives for the 1st 5 years of our marriage.  She told me she missed how great we were as a family, she loved how much fun we had together.

I don’t really remember those times, so I was taken aback when she asked me what happened.   After a pause I said “I got sick”.  It was really as simple as that.  I got sick.  A sick person can not do all the things a narc needs to fill his emptiness.

Sadly, I knew early on in my illness that my marriage was doomed.  I will always wonder who I might be had I left then.

https://themindsjournal.com/narcissist-says-i-love-you/