Shame

Shame sleeps through my body, coating every inch of me, like the remnants of melted ice cream in a child's hand, sticky and relentless Every word, every glance, every movement caught from the corner of my eye, reminds me that I am lacking; I am not enough; I am all the things I tried not … Continue reading Shame

Stories Become History

As a teen my family spent hours in family therapy. I was the focus, as I was the "problem". I was the 1st of my siblings to fall apart, calling attention to our family. As I deteriorated, we were all forced into increasingly awkward hourly sessions, during which my parents recounted my transgressions and called … Continue reading Stories Become History

Shadow Self-Narcissist Fuel

  If you are connected to a narcissist, you probably wrestle with your shadow self.  Some aspects of our shadow self are survival instincts no longer necessary to survive.  The most toxic parts of our shadow self though come from parents.  If you were raised by a narcissist or other disordered person, you have been  … Continue reading Shadow Self-Narcissist Fuel

Love & Kindness – All That Really Matter

My brother and his wife adopted a 2 year old girl from Russia 16 years ago. She has been both a joy and a nightmare, often within a single day.  Currently she is leaning towards nightmare, and my brother and his wife spend every day afraid for her.  I spent time with them all yesterday and … Continue reading Love & Kindness – All That Really Matter

Lies, Misrepresentation, and General Run Around

I am on medicare, and I have a number of health conditions, each requiring brand name medications.  I pay $83.90/month for additional prescription coverage.  I won't go into the details of medicare, except to say that when they have paid a certain amount, you enter what they call the "coverage gap".  At this point you … Continue reading Lies, Misrepresentation, and General Run Around