I recently went through an eye opening experience. After chemotherapy I fell often. I fell on stairs, the treadmill, the hallway; anywhere I walked I had the potential to fall. I assumed it was the result of neuropathy in my feet, and accepted that this was a side effect I would live with. After a … Continue reading Childhood Scripts
Words and Narcissistic Abuse
I didn't understand the power of words until I started recovering from narcissistic abuse. My therapist started dissecting my language, and slowly I learned how toxic the narc (and other disordered people) are in their use of language. I had put this issue aside until a co-worker started going through the separation/divorce process. She started … Continue reading Words and Narcissistic Abuse
Divorcing a Narcissist: The Aftermath
In the US we are currently witnessing a narcissistic, powerful, wealthy man lose his status. Many have wondered if his young wife will divorce him. My children were laughing about how well off she'd be if she did divorce him. Having divorced a narcissist, I'm very aware of the price we pay, and the actual … Continue reading Divorcing a Narcissist: The Aftermath
Snarling Teenage Boys
I am on the last of 4 teenage boys. I learned early on that boys require a special sort of patience, because they bring with them a level of hostility unrivaled by the angriest of all creatures. This morning was a perfect example. As I was dropping my 18 year old off at school … Continue reading Snarling Teenage Boys
The Practice of Medicine
A few weeks ago I had a seizure. I was sitting in my kitchen with my 17 year old son, working on his college applications. The next thing I knew there were strange men trying to kidnap me (paramedics) and, when I was finally full aware, I was sitting in an ambulance on my way … Continue reading The Practice of Medicine
Triggers
Triggers are unique to each individual, everyone has them, and they sometimes come out of the blue. I learned this the hard way this week. My work environment has been understaffed and, towards the end of the summer, we finally brought on board 3 new staff members. Honestly, I was disappointed when I met … Continue reading Triggers
The Narcissistic Mother
How easy it is to forget how bad things were once we're on our way to recovery. I did just that - forgot that while I've come to love my mother, she will never be an empathetic person. It happened this weekend. My brother has not spoken to either parent for over 3 years … Continue reading The Narcissistic Mother
Sex & the Covert Narcissist 2.0
I wrote Sex & the Covert Narc four years ago, and it continues to be my most often read entry. I decided it was time to update my thoughts in regards to sex. If you read my 1st blog you know that sex was one of the triggers my ex used. When I was … Continue reading Sex & the Covert Narcissist 2.0
Life After Long Term Narcissistic Abuse
I spent 24 with a covert narcissist. This was after growing up with a covert narcissist and an alcoholic. I am 6 years, 3 months from the date my covert narc moved out, and I believe I am now in the final stage of recovery. Of course I thought I was in the last … Continue reading Life After Long Term Narcissistic Abuse
The Permanence Of Heartbreak
(background info- my brothers beach house is next door to my mothers, and there is constant competition about who is staying with her, and she gets pretty crazy when I stay with my brother, which I do most often because, well...she's sort of crazy) Five years later there are still times I can't breathe. … Continue reading The Permanence Of Heartbreak
Survivors Guilt
One more lost........one more young, vibrant, involved, lovely girl, lost to Ovarian Cancer. She is one of - I've lost count of the number we've lost this year. Women who have worked so hard to fight not just for themselves but for all of us. For all Women. These are girls who have started major … Continue reading Survivors Guilt
