I returned from a solo trip to Mexico 5 days ago. I went to be part of the Dia De Los Muertos celebrations (day of the dead). It turned out that this celebration was the least impactful part of the trip. I've been struggling to put into words what I discovered, but how do … Continue reading Finding Myself in Silence
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Overt Versus Covert Narcissist
The Circus versus the Magician I just spent time with my uncle, a bon-a-fide covert narcissist of the somatic sub-type (obsessed with his looks & physical prowess). I had planned to work on implementing boundaries, but it took little time to realize I was fighting a losing battle. At the end of my time … Continue reading Overt Versus Covert Narcissist
Boundaries are Afoot
Tonight I have the "honor" of hosting my uncle, the King of Overt Narcissists (KOON). He has cancer and is getting a 3rd opinion at a hospital near me, so he is spending the night at my house and I'll take him to his appointment in the morning. I was asked to do this … Continue reading Boundaries are Afoot
Delusion, Meet Reality
I am surrounded by well meaning family & friends, all of whom want the best for me. I am also part of a yoga community, which wants the best for everyone, and I belong to cancer and divorce support groups on FB. All of these sources together have thrust me into a world of delusion, … Continue reading Delusion, Meet Reality
My Stupid Inner Critic
At therapy this week my therapist said "we have to get rid of that inner critic, always putting you down" and the 1st thought that popped into my head was "I know. I'm so stupid for doing that". What a predicament! How can I get rid of the voice that constantly criticizes me, when I'm … Continue reading My Stupid Inner Critic
Personality Traits: Both Good & Bad
The Real Me - I've been trying to figure out who I am. I was the bad seed in my family; the one who didn't quite fit but gave others a great laugh (not with, but at). I've worked hard all of my life to not be who I am, and now that I'd … Continue reading Personality Traits: Both Good & Bad
Mt. Everest
I've been writing about my recovery (much more than what I've posted) and it dawned on me that this Trek we are on, recovering from narcissistic abuse, might be similar to submitting Mt. Everest. Once the idea occurred to me I started reading up on Everest and I am stunned by much of what I … Continue reading Mt. Everest
The Insidious Take Down
https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/36952273/posts/1016561972 I happens so gradually, you don't understand what is happening. While it seems to others like he is bragging about your latest accomplishment, you somehow understand what he is really saying: shut it down. This is way too much about you. So there is the stress of being on eggshells on all times, … Continue reading The Insidious Take Down
Narcissists Love A Good Show!
One of the reasons we get hooked by the covert narc is that they take every Public Opportunity to be the Good Guy. Everyone raves about what a great guy they are, because everything they do is in public. This week is the perfect example, and thank God, I see it for what it is. … Continue reading Narcissists Love A Good Show!
The Magic of the Covert Narcissist
It's like magic, what the covert narcissist (CN) does to your head. Today is a great example of how it works. I started my day feeling pretty good. I felt strong, capable, not bad looking for my age, and, believe it or not, Happy. I went to yoga and saw people who I feel … Continue reading The Magic of the Covert Narcissist
Groomed but Escaped 