I hope I don't burn in hell for writing this...... I had an uncle who lived about 1.5 hours away from me. He was a flamboyant narcissist. He and his wife would come to my town every month or so, sit at my kitchen table and rattle on, telling me the same stories of their … Continue reading The Final Years of an Aging Narcissist
I spent today with my Aunt, who is the Executrix of her brother's estate. She drove 2.5 hours to get to his attorney's office. We then went to the courthouse to get the papers required to access his accounts. From there we were off to his 1st bank, then the 2nd. At the 1st bank, … Continue reading Die with Compassion
A lovely woman from my ovarian cancer group died last week. To be clear, she did not pass, depart or gain her teal wings - she Died. Yesterday was the service, and a group of us drove up together. It was short and simple. There was no viewing, no hymns, no priest or minister, and … Continue reading The Power of Negativity
My boss, the one who recently lost her son, was upset yesterday. She told me she didn't know how she was going to handle the upcoming weekend. Her son is a senior in college, and this weekend is Senior Night at the football game. She wasn't too concerned initially, because in high school parents escorted … Continue reading How Narcissists’ Damage Children
If you read my blog you know that my bosses son died 2 weeks ago. It was a tragic loss, yet my boss and her family handled it beautifully. She and her husband gave their son's Eulogy, and it was touching, poignant, funny and inspiring. And it triggered the shit out of me. (does this … Continue reading Feelings – Go Away Please!
This will be short because I am exhausted and not feeling well, but feeling compelled to write. Yesterday was the funeral for my bosses son. It was beautiful. She and her spouse gave the Eulogy, and there are no words to describe it. They were funny, poignant, joyous and sad. They spoke primarily to their … Continue reading Unconditional Love
My bosses 19 year old son died at 4:33 today. He suffered severe cerebral palsy from birth, and his past 3 years had been particularly cruel. He had 4 major surgeries, each resulting in major complications. Yesterday he suffered cardiac arrest. Today they made the decision to remove the ventilator keeping him alive, and he … Continue reading Anger, Grief & Death
How do I put this into words......... While I am not proud of how I behaved, last weekend I finally lost it with my parents. After spending the past year, hell - my entire life - trying to keep them happy, do the "right" thing, meet their needs, I lost it. I was accused of … Continue reading Who Must Bridge The Divide?
This is probably really bad for my karma but....... For Mother's day my eldest son and his GF took me to brunch at a restaurant in the city. The restaurant didn't take reservations, so we wandered around while waiting for our table. The section of the city is the current up and coming area, … Continue reading A Dress for My Ex’s Funeral
Last night I had the following dream - I was asleep in a highrise apartment. In the next bedroom was my step-son, age 5. I woke up and my ex (in the dream we are still together) is in bed with me, trying to cuddle. I ask him "what are you doing here? I thought … Continue reading Trapped