I spent 24 with a covert narcissist. This was after growing up with a covert narcissist and an alcoholic. I am 6 years, 3 months from the date my covert narc moved out, and I believe I am now in the final stage of recovery. Of course I thought I was in the last … Continue reading Life After Long Term Narcissistic Abuse
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Survivors Guilt
One more lost........one more young, vibrant, involved, lovely girl, lost to Ovarian Cancer. She is one of - I've lost count of the number we've lost this year. Women who have worked so hard to fight not just for themselves but for all of us. For all Women. These are girls who have started major … Continue reading Survivors Guilt
Revenge
It took about 1 year for me to realize I had been married to, and was now divorcing, a covert narcissist. Memories flooded back. I had a hard time figuring out where to put the feelings, heartbreak and regret; hence this blog. At one point I wrote The Tractor. It was partially autobiographical but mostly … Continue reading Revenge
Cats, Dogs & Sexism
I have a cat and a dog, both of whom I love. My dog has been plastered by my side through chemo, divorce, moving: every moment of the 10 years she's been with me. When I've been too sick to walk her she runs outside, does her business and gets right back in bed … Continue reading Cats, Dogs & Sexism
The Weight Of Cancer
As a 5 year survivor of late stage Ovarian Cancer I am often approached by family members of people recently diagnosed with a deadly cancer. I've been searching for an image of how it feels to be diagnosed with a deadly disease, and the best I can come up with is a barbell. I was … Continue reading The Weight Of Cancer
Capitalism, Cancer and Outrage
This morning my FaceBook feed alerted me to Sephora's new program, designed to benefit cancer patients. During a 6 minute video they show bald, scared, suffering women, getting makeup and skin care tips, then walking through the store being shown products by a Sephora employee. Credits roll. Women rejoice. Wait....... Right after my 1st round … Continue reading Capitalism, Cancer and Outrage
Misery in Menopause
Nature's Way of Thinning out The Elderly? I am a fan of understanding the biological imperative behind life stages. When my teenage son treats me like the Wicked Witch of the West because I suggested he....(insert any action a mother might request of a son; they all end the same way)........I like to remind … Continue reading Misery in Menopause
De Dia De Los Muertos
While in Mexico I fell in love with the statues and mannequins that represent Dia De Los Muertos. My children were aghast when I said I wanted a full size mannequin for my dining room. "Mom, that's morbid" they exclaimed. When I looked at these mannequins though, I saw nothing morbid about them. In fact, … Continue reading De Dia De Los Muertos
Turn Your Town Teal
#teamtealsix #cancersucks #ovariancancer #sandyrollman #randomactsofteal #tealisthenewpink Purpose What do you do when the shit is all cleaned up? The divorce is final, your body and soul have healed, you're settled into your new home, your new tribe is established? When it's all over, something new sets in. I would describe it as boredom, but it … Continue reading Turn Your Town Teal
The Tractor
Him He pulled up to the house in his Cadillac. He parked it on the street and checked the carport to make sure she wasn’t home. He caressed the car as he left it, filled with pride that it was his, reveling in the fact that while she would have fought against its purchase, she … Continue reading The Tractor
Groomed but Escaped 