I recently went through an eye opening experience. After chemotherapy I fell often. I fell on stairs, the treadmill, the hallway; anywhere I walked I had the potential to fall. I assumed it was the result of neuropathy in my feet, and accepted that this was a side effect I would live with. After a … Continue reading Childhood Scripts
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Tips & Tricks-Recovering from Narcissistic Abuse
Those taking on the challenge of climbing Mt. Everest arrive at base camp between March & April. They spend a few weeks at base camp, acclimatizing to the altitude, taking short day trips, getting to know their companions and, I assume, learning tips and tricks for the dangerous climb ahead. I can't imagine traversing the … Continue reading Tips & Tricks-Recovering from Narcissistic Abuse
De Dia De Los Muertos
While in Mexico I fell in love with the statues and mannequins that represent Dia De Los Muertos. My children were aghast when I said I wanted a full size mannequin for my dining room. "Mom, that's morbid" they exclaimed. When I looked at these mannequins though, I saw nothing morbid about them. In fact, … Continue reading De Dia De Los Muertos
Turn Your Town Teal
#teamtealsix #cancersucks #ovariancancer #sandyrollman #randomactsofteal #tealisthenewpink Purpose What do you do when the shit is all cleaned up? The divorce is final, your body and soul have healed, you're settled into your new home, your new tribe is established? When it's all over, something new sets in. I would describe it as boredom, but it … Continue reading Turn Your Town Teal
Anxiety
I've been experiencing increasing anxiety lately and today I sat down and gave some serious thought to why. I realize it is all tied to my taxes........sort of. Tomorrow I have to go to my ex's/our accountants office, , to ask for the signed K-1 and Cost Basis forms for my taxes. The accountant has … Continue reading Anxiety
Anxiety & Narcissistic Abuse
Anxiety has followed me all of my life. In recent years I've managed to temper it's impact. In new situations, like my recent travel to Sri Lanka, I can leave anxiety at home. Oddly, it still haunts me in some ordinary, day to day circumstances. I assume the association between many normal life events and … Continue reading Anxiety & Narcissistic Abuse
The Narcissist & Quicksand
Occasionally I find a subject that fascinates me, and I spend hours learning about it. Mt. Everest and Fairy Circles are two examples. Ask me anything - I probably know the answer. Today I am pondering quicksand. The more I learn about it the more similarities I find between quicksand and the narcissist. You don't … Continue reading The Narcissist & Quicksand
Cancer Saved My Life
I received the transcript from my spouse's deposition today, and I started reading it. I was floored on the 1st page, when he spoke about how our divorce came about. I remember the moment as if it happened yesterday. It is forever seared into my brain. It was 9:20AM. I was in the kitchen preparing … Continue reading Cancer Saved My Life
The Perils of Writing
I often find, when having a conversation with someone, lots of other thoughts arise. So it was this morning at my yoga studio. I had been working on a blog about the studio, and I had sent it to the owners to read before I posted it. Several of my yoga blogs have been posted … Continue reading The Perils of Writing
Do I Owe You?
I have a plethora of family and friends who have been stepping up to help me over the past 3 years. I am grateful, but nervous. In my world, when someone helps you, you owe them. Some of the people who have stepped up, when I've expressed concern that I can never pay them back, … Continue reading Do I Owe You?
Groomed but Escaped 