I returned from a solo trip to Mexico 5 days ago. I went to be part of the Dia De Los Muertos celebrations (day of the dead). It turned out that this celebration was the least impactful part of the trip. I've been struggling to put into words what I discovered, but how do … Continue reading Finding Myself in Silence
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Cheating Narcissist
Funny story...... My ex recently changed his job. He told our son that he was doing it because he wouldn't have to work weekends, and would have every other Friday off. Lo and behold, he's now working every Friday & every weekend. My son told me this when I asked how he gets to work … Continue reading Cheating Narcissist
Wake Up Call
For a variety of reasons I've been working a lot the past two weeks. I should quantify this: a lot for me. I love working. I love projects, being around people, feeling productive, not laying in bed. Despite the fact that I know better, I still volunteer for much more than I can handle physically. … Continue reading Wake Up Call
Change
Change I watch the ripples change their size but never leave the stream of warm impermanence and so the days float through my eyes but still the days seem the same. David Bowie August August represents the end of carefree days and overfilled late summer nights, the end of freedom. As a child, August was … Continue reading Change
When Time Stands Still
I will never forget the moment time stopped. It was 4:30 on a Monday afternoon. It was hot, early June. I was deep in thought as I walked my dog. I was thinking about how to get my 11 year old fed and to his baseball game. I was worried he wouldn't get a hit, … Continue reading When Time Stands Still
Competitive Yoga, the Soul & Donuts
I am a competitive person. I inherited this from my father. Lest he deny this, I'll remind him of balloon volleyball. I had just moved into a new home with my 3 boys, all under the age of 10. The home had a huge room with concrete floors, a few windows and nothing else. My … Continue reading Competitive Yoga, the Soul & Donuts
Maneuvering Around the Narcissist
Bear with me - I am going to think this out as I write it. The narcissist thinks only of himself. If you are reading this you can't really grasp this. You are so busy thinking of everyone around you it makes no sense that the narc could care less. The only way I've come … Continue reading Maneuvering Around the Narcissist
The Mess Left By The Narcissist
How The Narcissist Steals Your Health, Your Sanity & Your Soul Now that my divorce is final I get to sell my house. I had thought last fall that we might be coming to an agreement, and my cousins and I did a lot of work to get the house ready for marketing. When … Continue reading The Mess Left By The Narcissist
I’m Moving On!!!!
What a week! In my wildest dreams I could not have envisioned the week I've had. Three Huge Things Happened. I'll explain them in reverse. The 3rd thing happened today. Today I had another divorce hearing. I assumed it would amount to nothing, especially when my attorney called me at 9AM to tell me … Continue reading I’m Moving On!!!!
I Have A Feeling Hangover
I have a feeling hangover! Two years ago, when I started with my therapist, she said (and I repeatedly read) "you have to feel your feelings to get past them. You have to walk through them and FEEL them". I said WTF does that mean? I feel my feelings. I get sad, I cry, … Continue reading I Have A Feeling Hangover
Groomed but Escaped 