Getting divorced is complicated, especially when you are in a situation like mine. My ex and I own a restaurant together. Over the years, as my health worsened, my role decreased and his increased. In the 4 or 5 years before our separation I had little to do with the business, leaving decisions, management and … Continue reading The Unaccountable Accountant
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Sidestepping the Pain
I don't want to write about pain anymore. Yes, I am in pain. Every time I think it's gone, it resurfaces, and I wallow. And I'm so, so tired of it! If the only way out is through it, I guess I won't get out, because I'm not going through it anymore. I'm going to … Continue reading Sidestepping the Pain
Are You Saying It’s My Fault?
One of the major issues I had raising children with my narc was his inability to look at himself critically. As the Chosen One of a Narc, I am excessively good at looking at myself critically. Ask me, at any random point in any random day, and I will come up with 20 Major Flaws … Continue reading Are You Saying It’s My Fault?
Where is My Lorelai Gilmore Chip?
Part of getting divorced is cutting expenses. As a result, I no longer have cable, which has led to Netflix binges. I've just finished the first season of the Gilmore Girls, which I had never watched before, but am completely taken by. When I first started watching I was very unsure of Lorelai. She seemed … Continue reading Where is My Lorelai Gilmore Chip?
Petrification: Can I Break Out?
I've been trying to put into words what is happening to me right now, and I've been complete unsuccessful. Last week I realized that I feel dirty. My skin feels sullied, and I want to tear it off. At first I thought it was just my skin, and that if I could cure that … Continue reading Petrification: Can I Break Out?
Geometry And Yoga
I took remedial Geometry in 10th grade. I'm not sure how they knew this was a terrible subject for me, but they did. Having just come from, and loved, algebra, I wasn't very concerned about Geometry. Imagine my surprise when it just didn't seem to take. Apparently I am missing the spacial awareness chip, so … Continue reading Geometry And Yoga
My 1st Thanksgiving & Gratitude
Yesterday was the 1st time I've hosted a holiday dinner alone. Before my marriage I lived alone and accepted others' invites, so no stress there. Once married, my ex, the Chef, did the cooking for holiday meals. Last year, the first round of holidays post separation, my parents and cousins bailed me out, my … Continue reading My 1st Thanksgiving & Gratitude
A Bull In The China Shop
I grew up being told I was like a bull in a china shop. I had trouble reconciling this. I was able to do great things on the balance beam at school, I never seemed to break things in other people’s homes, and I was generally competent when trying new physical endeavors. Most times I … Continue reading A Bull In The China Shop
I Need An App To Learn That App
I try really hard not to act old. I pride myself on not saying “kids these days….”, or “when I was a kid….”, or “the problems with this generation……”. I am a firm believer that while the issues facing “kids” today aren’t the issues I faced, this makes them no less difficult or relevant. I … Continue reading I Need An App To Learn That App
Groomed but Escaped 