Thriving After Narcissistic Abuse A friend gave me this orchid last September. She told me Orchids require sun, so I put it on a shelf by my front door that gets light. Then I waited. And waited. And waited. A few months later, two leaves were cracked, one with what appeared to be a … Continue reading Bloom Like an Orchid
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Drama Feeds Narcissists
If you have children, you are familiar with the difficulty of getting them to do chores. You start calmly explaining what they need to do, they respond "sure", then wander off and turn on the TV. You wait a few minutes, convinced that they are mulling over the project and intend to get to it … Continue reading Drama Feeds Narcissists
Actions Speak Louder Than Words
I have struggled with my bosses. According to my therapist, I am expecting people who have consistently demonstrated that they don't have my back, to have my back. An old pattern of mine, and the definition of crazy! This weekend was my Ovarian Cancer walk. The walk is held by a foundation I support all … Continue reading Actions Speak Louder Than Words
Anxiety
I've been experiencing increasing anxiety lately and today I sat down and gave some serious thought to why. I realize it is all tied to my taxes........sort of. Tomorrow I have to go to my ex's/our accountants office, , to ask for the signed K-1 and Cost Basis forms for my taxes. The accountant has … Continue reading Anxiety
Bank Of America – Power Mongers
Not sure what a PS is when put before the blog, but had to add this information I stumbled across. It is all a scam, with tax payers $. https://www.hbsslaw.com/cases/bank-of-america-rico/pressrelease/bank-of-america-rico-appeals-court-reverses-rico-fraud-class-action-against-bank-of-america-allowing-homeowners-lawsuit-to-proceed Bank Of America. Wow. Just wow. The details are complicated, so I'll try to sum up what has happened quickly. I was … Continue reading Bank Of America – Power Mongers
Panic
I made it through Easter with a smile and grace on the outside. On the inside, I can barely breathe. While I've said this to no one, I honestly don't know how much more I can handle. I feel like I dug a huge pit in the sand and voluntarily jumped in. I then … Continue reading Panic
Swimming in a Sea Of Insanity
“It hurts to look at the clouds, but it also helps, like most things that cause pain.” ― Matthew Quick, The Silver Linings Playbook When my middle son was a toddler he would ask me questions. A lot of questions. Questions I couldn't answer. He didn't ask the usual unanswerable questions, like "why is … Continue reading Swimming in a Sea Of Insanity
Good Luck, Other Woman
Sometimes I write and write and feel like I've never really gotten to the heart of the matter. This blog is like that. I feel the message I'm trying to deliver, but my words feel inadequate, shallow, frivolous. I'll keep going, but I know that on some level I am blocking the root issue. Maybe … Continue reading Good Luck, Other Woman
When Time Stands Still
I will never forget the moment time stopped. It was 4:30 on a Monday afternoon. It was hot, early June. I was deep in thought as I walked my dog. I was thinking about how to get my 11 year old fed and to his baseball game. I was worried he wouldn't get a hit, … Continue reading When Time Stands Still
The Lie Sundae: The Narc’s Weapon
The Worse thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth. I recently read these words, by an author I don't know, and I've been thinking about them. I imagine in a healthy relationship this might be true. I've not been in a healthy relationship, so I don't know. Do healthy couples … Continue reading The Lie Sundae: The Narc’s Weapon
Groomed but Escaped 