How easy it is to forget how bad things were once we're on our way to recovery. I did just that - forgot that while I've come to love my mother, she will never be an empathetic person. It happened this weekend. My brother has not spoken to either parent for over 3 years … Continue reading The Narcissistic Mother
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Shadow Self-Narcissist Fuel
If you are connected to a narcissist, you probably wrestle with your shadow self. Some aspects of our shadow self are survival instincts no longer necessary to survive. The most toxic parts of our shadow self though come from parents. If you were raised by a narcissist or other disordered person, you have been … Continue reading Shadow Self-Narcissist Fuel
The Narcissistic Father
I thought I would feel vindicated when my children finally figured out their narcissistic father. Instead, I just feel sad. The younger two have known for a while who and what their dad is. Not much has changed for them. My eldest is the one I've worried about. My ex always spent the most … Continue reading The Narcissistic Father
The Final Years of an Aging Narcissist
I hope I don't burn in hell for writing this...... I had an uncle who lived about 1.5 hours away from me. He was a flamboyant narcissist. He and his wife would come to my town every month or so, sit at my kitchen table and rattle on, telling me the same stories of their … Continue reading The Final Years of an Aging Narcissist
Anxiety & Narcissistic Abuse
Anxiety has followed me all of my life. In recent years I've managed to temper it's impact. In new situations, like my recent travel to Sri Lanka, I can leave anxiety at home. Oddly, it still haunts me in some ordinary, day to day circumstances. I assume the association between many normal life events and … Continue reading Anxiety & Narcissistic Abuse
Narcissists Feed On Shame
Shame is a new concept for me. I lived it, but I never understood it. From as early as I can remember I've felt a deep sense of shame, a belief that I was inherently such a bad human I deserved nothing. As a child I was called "practically perfect". My family thought this was … Continue reading Narcissists Feed On Shame
Share Your Fondest Childhood Memory
Brene Brown is one of my favorite authors, and I've devoured each of her books. As much as I love her writing, her Ted Talks and her website, I've not been able to do much with her information. The only step I've taken is this blog, in which I'm trying to re-claim my authentic … Continue reading Share Your Fondest Childhood Memory
Rewriting My Childhood
Years ago my mother gave me a bag of letters from my childhood. Most were letters I had written, but there was one she had written. She wrote it when I was a senior in college. It was addressed to my sorority sister who wanted information about my childhood to use in the Senior Send … Continue reading Rewriting My Childhood
Groomed but Escaped 