I made it through Easter with a smile and grace on the outside. On the inside, I can barely breathe. While I've said this to no one, I honestly don't know how much more I can handle. I feel like I dug a huge pit in the sand and voluntarily jumped in. I then … Continue reading Panic
I will never forget the moment time stopped. It was 4:30 on a Monday afternoon. It was hot, early June. I was deep in thought as I walked my dog. I was thinking about how to get my 11 year old fed and to his baseball game. I was worried he wouldn't get a hit, … Continue reading When Time Stands Still
When I was young thin mint girl scout cookies were a big deal. During the cookie season, one night each week our dessert would be thin mints. On the thin mint nights here is what happened. Dad, sitting at the head of the table, would open a sleeve of cookies. He would give himself 3 … Continue reading Thankyou, May I Have Another?
(As always, substitute her if you are a guy) I thought it might be fun for some of us regulars to share how our ex introduced his adulterer to our kids. I'll go first. I'll tell it from my point of view and his point of view (his in red. Like Scarlet Letter Red) ME: … Continue reading How Did Your Ex Introduce His Paramour to Your Children?
How The Narcissist Steals Your Health, Your Sanity & Your Soul Now that my divorce is final I get to sell my house. I had thought last fall that we might be coming to an agreement, and my cousins and I did a lot of work to get the house ready for marketing. When … Continue reading The Mess Left By The Narcissist
I received the transcript from my spouse's deposition today, and I started reading it. I was floored on the 1st page, when he spoke about how our divorce came about. I remember the moment as if it happened yesterday. It is forever seared into my brain. It was 9:20AM. I was in the kitchen preparing … Continue reading Cancer Saved My Life
If you are in a relationship with an adulterer, there is the chance you will have to deal with bed bugs at some point. I had the joy of this while going through chemotherapy. When I first started seeing streaks of blood on my sheets I assumed it was because of my surgery. By the … Continue reading Adultary & Bed Bugs
Never have I been more confused about my feeling of time than the past 3 years. Did that happen yesterday or last year? Did I say that today or last week? It's as if the time chip in my brain is on the fritz. I keep searching for it, going round and round in my … Continue reading Time
I often find, when having a conversation with someone, lots of other thoughts arise. So it was this morning at my yoga studio. I had been working on a blog about the studio, and I had sent it to the owners to read before I posted it. Several of my yoga blogs have been posted … Continue reading The Perils of Writing
Tonight I have the "honor" of hosting my uncle, the King of Overt Narcissists (KOON). He has cancer and is getting a 3rd opinion at a hospital near me, so he is spending the night at my house and I'll take him to his appointment in the morning. I was asked to do this … Continue reading Boundaries are Afoot