My father is a stern man. As a child I feared him. On the few occasions I felt softness from him, I was too startled to embrace the moment. I'd never seen my father cry. He didn't cry when he buried his parents and two of his sisters, he didn't cry at any of our … Continue reading I Saw My Father Cry
Author: MurphyCee
The Narc Show
Food for the Narcissist There is a "gentleman" who is relatively new to my yoga studio. He came in with a bang, and has put on a show ever since. He enters the door only when no one else is coming, and he makes sure everyone knows he's arrived. His body language screams "look … Continue reading The Narc Show
Self Compassion After Narcissistic Abuse
As I enter my fourth year of recovery from narcissistic abuse, I find myself exhausted and bitter because of the layers of damage I have to peel away. I thought I was in a really good place because I'd been feeling really good about myself. One nagging issue though, had me wondering how well I … Continue reading Self Compassion After Narcissistic Abuse
Oprah & the Covert Narcissist
What is the Truth? I've been trying for 3 days to write a blog about Oprah's Golden Globe speech without referencing my ex narc. Alas, it is not meant to be. I am compelled to write about the intersection of my ex narc and Oprah. Quick background - my ex left his 1st wife … Continue reading Oprah & the Covert Narcissist
Non-Negotiables and Narcissists
Narcissists Thrive on Non-negotiables! During the love bombing phase the narcissist learns what your non-negotiables are and emulates them, leading you to believe you've met your "soulmate". Even if you don't actually believe in soulmates, you will by the time the narcissist is done love bombing you. All of your non-negotiables, even ones you … Continue reading Non-Negotiables and Narcissists
Life After the Narcissist
I dreamed of a family and wall to wall carpeting as a child. Wall to wall carpeting was relatively new, and many of my friends had it. We had oriental rugs and hard wood, and our house was cold. My friends had families that loved each other. They looked forward to seeing each other, they … Continue reading Life After the Narcissist
The Crowd Cried
Yes, this is what happened at my ex's wedding last night. According to my son. My son left as soon as the "wedding" was over, because he felt ridiculous watching all these people cry. I haven't got the courage to ask him who was crying, because so many of my ex family in law was … Continue reading The Crowd Cried
The Essence of Yoga
God bless her, my mother keeps asking me to teach her some "yoga poses". It makes sense. I taught her dance aerobics, step aerobics, zumba, weight lifting and roller blading. Each craze I've embraced, she's embraced, and I adore her for it. So why did I get so annoyed when she kept pushing me … Continue reading The Essence of Yoga
Diverting the Narcissist
Standing in Uncomfortability Apparently uncomfortability is not a word. It is, however, one used often in my work environment. It is also a situation I found myself in Monday morning. For over an hour. Let me start by saying I know I'm outdated, but I Do Not Understand why certain words are used … Continue reading Diverting the Narcissist
#MyKidIsAnA-Hole
Is there a hashtag for this? Personally, I don't understand instagram so I don't know. I just know that if I did understand instagram, I'd be creating this hashtag today. Today my boss lovingly informed me that my ex and his new girl are getting married December 23. She told me because she and her … Continue reading #MyKidIsAnA-Hole
Groomed but Escaped 