If you are connected to a narcissist, you probably wrestle with your shadow self. Some aspects of our shadow self are survival instincts no longer necessary to survive. The most toxic parts of our shadow self though come from parents. If you were raised by a narcissist or other disordered person, you have been … Continue reading Shadow Self-Narcissist Fuel
Yoga
A personal journey into the world of yoga and meditation.
Revenge
It took about 1 year for me to realize I had been married to, and was now divorcing, a covert narcissist. Memories flooded back. I had a hard time figuring out where to put the feelings, heartbreak and regret; hence this blog. At one point I wrote The Tractor. It was partially autobiographical but mostly … Continue reading Revenge
Turn Your Town Teal
#teamtealsix #cancersucks #ovariancancer #sandyrollman #randomactsofteal #tealisthenewpink Purpose What do you do when the shit is all cleaned up? The divorce is final, your body and soul have healed, you're settled into your new home, your new tribe is established? When it's all over, something new sets in. I would describe it as boredom, but it … Continue reading Turn Your Town Teal
Let It Be
What Charlotte Taught Me Meet Charlotte. She's the one with 3 legs. I'm the one with 2 legs. While I might be the one writing this blog, I am only repeating what Charlotte taught me. It might be useful to anyone going through any type of trauma, whether it be an illness, divorce, abuse, a … Continue reading Let It Be
Transitions
Yoga is often an allegory for life. Such is the case for me right now. After my cast came off , I graduated to a sling type contraption. I was finally able to put weight on my foot and, after about three weeks, it was feeling really good. I decided it was time to head … Continue reading Transitions
Actions Speak Louder Than Words
I have struggled with my bosses. According to my therapist, I am expecting people who have consistently demonstrated that they don't have my back, to have my back. An old pattern of mine, and the definition of crazy! This weekend was my Ovarian Cancer walk. The walk is held by a foundation I support all … Continue reading Actions Speak Louder Than Words
Anxiety
I've been experiencing increasing anxiety lately and today I sat down and gave some serious thought to why. I realize it is all tied to my taxes........sort of. Tomorrow I have to go to my ex's/our accountants office, , to ask for the signed K-1 and Cost Basis forms for my taxes. The accountant has … Continue reading Anxiety
Disability, Prejudice & the Narcissist
I am prejudiced. 100% prejudiced. I am prejudiced against people with disabilities. Which makes it mighty tough to be a person with disabilities! I was raised to believe that you must be doing something constructive each waking hour. Work/school were not to be missed, even if you were deathly ill. "Leisure time" was used to … Continue reading Disability, Prejudice & the Narcissist
The Narc Show
Food for the Narcissist There is a "gentleman" who is relatively new to my yoga studio. He came in with a bang, and has put on a show ever since. He enters the door only when no one else is coming, and he makes sure everyone knows he's arrived. His body language screams "look … Continue reading The Narc Show
The Essence of Yoga
God bless her, my mother keeps asking me to teach her some "yoga poses". It makes sense. I taught her dance aerobics, step aerobics, zumba, weight lifting and roller blading. Each craze I've embraced, she's embraced, and I adore her for it. So why did I get so annoyed when she kept pushing me … Continue reading The Essence of Yoga
Groomed but Escaped 