I am often puzzled (my nice way of saying WTF??) at what is said at my yoga studio. Phrases often seem obvious, ridiculous or simply crazy. This weekend I came to understand 2 such phrases, one of which I'll write about here. I spent the entire weekend doing a "Sing Yourself Awake" workshop with Suzanne … Continue reading Strange Yogi Sayings
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Competitive Yoga, the Soul & Donuts
I am a competitive person. I inherited this from my father. Lest he deny this, I'll remind him of balloon volleyball. I had just moved into a new home with my 3 boys, all under the age of 10. The home had a huge room with concrete floors, a few windows and nothing else. My … Continue reading Competitive Yoga, the Soul & Donuts
Narcissists Feed On Shame
Shame is a new concept for me. I lived it, but I never understood it. From as early as I can remember I've felt a deep sense of shame, a belief that I was inherently such a bad human I deserved nothing. As a child I was called "practically perfect". My family thought this was … Continue reading Narcissists Feed On Shame
I’m Moving On!!!!
What a week! In my wildest dreams I could not have envisioned the week I've had. Three Huge Things Happened. I'll explain them in reverse. The 3rd thing happened today. Today I had another divorce hearing. I assumed it would amount to nothing, especially when my attorney called me at 9AM to tell me … Continue reading I’m Moving On!!!!
I Love My Job
How goofy is this: I Love the part time job I've been given at my yoga studio. I love having somewhere to be. I love people smiling at me, and saying Thank You. I love the owners saying I'm doing a good job, and a client saying "I'm so happy I got you on … Continue reading I Love My Job
The Perils of Writing
I often find, when having a conversation with someone, lots of other thoughts arise. So it was this morning at my yoga studio. I had been working on a blog about the studio, and I had sent it to the owners to read before I posted it. Several of my yoga blogs have been posted … Continue reading The Perils of Writing
Delusion, Meet Reality
I am surrounded by well meaning family & friends, all of whom want the best for me. I am also part of a yoga community, which wants the best for everyone, and I belong to cancer and divorce support groups on FB. All of these sources together have thrust me into a world of delusion, … Continue reading Delusion, Meet Reality
The Covert Narc’s Son
I kicked out my middle son today. Actually, I gave him several months to work things out, to start helping himself and to stop treating me like shit. When nothing changed, I gave him a month's notice to go. I should be wracked with guilt, but I'm not. I'm relieved. I know it's possible I'll … Continue reading The Covert Narc’s Son
Forgiveness: Not For The Narcissist
I'm feeling a bit angry right now. If you don't follow my blog, here's the key points to know: 1) I spent 25 years with, and am now divorcing, a covert narcissist 2) Yoga has become one of my coping techniques 3) I live in a small community, and me & the ex-narc have … Continue reading Forgiveness: Not For The Narcissist
My AHA! Moment
If happened this morning! All of the writing, reading, talking, meditating, ruminating, examining and yoga all came together this morning and I GOT IT! It has taken a long time to get here, and I know I am still a work in progress, but I finally feel like it's a journey worth taking. I want … Continue reading My AHA! Moment
Groomed but Escaped 