I have spent a lifetime being told I have a great imagination. Actually, great is not usually the word that is used. I usually hear "vivid" or "active". When these words are used it is meant to convey the fact that I am wrong. I am mis-remembering, making things up, foolish or childish. As I write … Continue reading Live Like You Deserve To
Last week I found myself in an uncomfortable situation.........in Sri Lanka. I live on the east coast of the USA - Sri Lanka is 8 time zones away. I was aware by Sunday afternoon that I was not going to be happy at the retreat I was on, yet I was to be there for … Continue reading
I've had a really hard day/week, so forgive me if this is scattered. Imagine this: You are drowning. It is obvious you are drowning. Everyone knows this. Someone offers to throw you a buoy. You accept. You say "go ahead - throw me the red buoy" They say "wait - what size buoy? why the … Continue reading Will You Help Me?
Shame is a new concept for me. I lived it, but I never understood it. From as early as I can remember I've felt a deep sense of shame, a belief that I was inherently such a bad human I deserved nothing. As a child I was called "practically perfect". My family thought this was … Continue reading Narcissists Feed On Shame
When I was young thin mint girl scout cookies were a big deal. During the cookie season, one night each week our dessert would be thin mints. On the thin mint nights here is what happened. Dad, sitting at the head of the table, would open a sleeve of cookies. He would give himself 3 … Continue reading Thankyou, May I Have Another?
If happened this morning! All of the writing, reading, talking, meditating, ruminating, examining and yoga all came together this morning and I GOT IT! It has taken a long time to get here, and I know I am still a work in progress, but I finally feel like it's a journey worth taking. I want … Continue reading My AHA! Moment