I have spent a lifetime being told I have a great imagination. Actually, great is not usually the word that is used. I usually hear "vivid" or "active". When these words are used it is meant to convey the fact that I am wrong. I am mis-remembering, making things up, foolish or childish. As I write … Continue reading Live Like You Deserve To
ovarian cancer
No Good Deed Goes Unpunished
This phrase describes my life more frequently as I age. The most recent example happened this morning on FB. I've been trying to raise awareness about ovarian cancer (ovca). Last night I wrote a post about the CA125 blood test and pelvic ultrasound. These are usually the 1st 2 tests done to diagnose ovca. In … Continue reading No Good Deed Goes Unpunished
Actions Speak Louder Than Words
I have struggled with my bosses. According to my therapist, I am expecting people who have consistently demonstrated that they don't have my back, to have my back. An old pattern of mine, and the definition of crazy! This weekend was my Ovarian Cancer walk. The walk is held by a foundation I support all … Continue reading Actions Speak Louder Than Words
The Power of Negativity
A lovely woman from my ovarian cancer group died last week. To be clear, she did not pass, depart or gain her teal wings - she Died. Yesterday was the service, and a group of us drove up together. It was short and simple. There was no viewing, no hymns, no priest or minister, and … Continue reading The Power of Negativity
Let’s Talk About Your Pelvis
I am an ovarian cancer survivor. I am late stage, which the majority of us are. I wake up every day and remember, in an instant, that I am living with a 85% recurrence rate, that my cancer is viewed as a "chronic" condition, that it is only a matter or time... And I'm mad. … Continue reading Let’s Talk About Your Pelvis
Worldwide Ovarian Cancer Awareness Day
After my diagnosis in July of 2013 I made a decision: I would go through chemo, learn nothing, invest nothing, and never look back. Cancer would be a blip on my radar, not a life changer. Turned out my son was not going to let me get away with that. Having faced the possibility of … Continue reading Worldwide Ovarian Cancer Awareness Day
Panic
I made it through Easter with a smile and grace on the outside. On the inside, I can barely breathe. While I've said this to no one, I honestly don't know how much more I can handle. I feel like I dug a huge pit in the sand and voluntarily jumped in. I then … Continue reading Panic
Reluctant Advocate
I've been thinking about how I got involved in ovarian cancer advocacy, and I thought what better place to tell my story. Humiliating as it is! When I finally settled in to the fact that I had advanced stage cancer, requiring major surgery then 6 rounds of brutal chemo, I made a decision: I was … Continue reading Reluctant Advocate
When Time Stands Still
I will never forget the moment time stopped. It was 4:30 on a Monday afternoon. It was hot, early June. I was deep in thought as I walked my dog. I was thinking about how to get my 11 year old fed and to his baseball game. I was worried he wouldn't get a hit, … Continue reading When Time Stands Still
I’m Moving On!!!!
What a week! In my wildest dreams I could not have envisioned the week I've had. Three Huge Things Happened. I'll explain them in reverse. The 3rd thing happened today. Today I had another divorce hearing. I assumed it would amount to nothing, especially when my attorney called me at 9AM to tell me … Continue reading I’m Moving On!!!!
Groomed but Escaped 