Remember the scene in Love Actually when Mark, who's in love with his best friends wife, Juliet, tells her, via signs, that he is moving on? As he walks away, he says "enough", and it is clear that he has turned the corner. He is done wallowing, he is over pining away for her. Today, … Continue reading Enough
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Snow, Single Mothers’, Alzheimer’s & Guilt
The largest blizzard I ever lived through was in 1996. I was 7 months pregnant, lived with my ex, our 3 year old, and my 7 year old step son. We lived in a twin on a block made up of other twins, most of which were filled with young children. It was a great … Continue reading Snow, Single Mothers’, Alzheimer’s & Guilt
Toilet Seats & The Narcissist
As far as I can tell, there are 2 types of boys in the world: those that put the seat down and those who don't. My boys put the seat down, except in their own bathroom, when their girlfriends are not around. I take no credit for this. In fact, I think it is an … Continue reading Toilet Seats & The Narcissist
Petrification: Can I Break Out?
I've been trying to put into words what is happening to me right now, and I've been complete unsuccessful. Last week I realized that I feel dirty. My skin feels sullied, and I want to tear it off. At first I thought it was just my skin, and that if I could cure that … Continue reading Petrification: Can I Break Out?
I’m Just So Hurt
It has been 1 year, 8 months & 10 days since my ex asked for a divorce, swearing there wasn't another woman. It's been 1 year, 8 months & 15 days since I found proof of the other woman. It's been 1 year, 9 months and 12 days since he admitted, in writing, that there … Continue reading I’m Just So Hurt
Fear Of Flying
What creates a fear of flying? I was never afraid to fly, until the day I suddenly was. For years I've required copious amounts of Valium and alcohol to fly. One flight, years ago, was due to leave around 7AM. By 6:30 I had taken 2 Xanax and had a drink; yes, at … Continue reading Fear Of Flying
Freedom From Waiting
I have a bowl of "Angel Cards": cards with inspirational words. The premise is that we all have angels watching over us, and they will guide our hand to the card we need that day. I don't know if that part is true or not, but I do know that whatever word I pull … Continue reading Freedom From Waiting
Alone or Lonely?
I have always enjoyed being alone. From as far back as I can remember I was just as content playing alone as I was playing with my friends. As a matter of fact, I cherished my time alone. I have many solitary activities that I enjoy, so being alone is never a problem for me. … Continue reading Alone or Lonely?
Codependency or Self-Love Deficit Disorder?
In case you haven't heard of him, Ross Rosenberg is an online guru who tackles the issues of "codependency" in relation to those in a relationship with a narcissist. He has numerous youtube videos, as well as a book called The Human Magnet Syndrome. The idea that empaths are particularly preyed upon by narcissists … Continue reading Codependency or Self-Love Deficit Disorder?
Can Yoga Give Me Self-Love?
Self-love is not my strong suit. In fact, I’d go as far as to say that self-love is practically non-existent for me. I know that everyone has issues with various parts of themselves, like the stick thin woman who thinks her thighs are fat, or the over-weight but otherwise happy woman who hates her hair, … Continue reading Can Yoga Give Me Self-Love?
Groomed but Escaped 