You will know this is a true story because who would/could make this up. My day today - My drivers license expires in 3 days, so I set this morning aside to renew it. I drove 20 miles further than the DMV close to me, because there is never a line. I walked in … Continue reading Steer Into the Skid
If you read my blog you know that my bosses son died 2 weeks ago. It was a tragic loss, yet my boss and her family handled it beautifully. She and her husband gave their son's Eulogy, and it was touching, poignant, funny and inspiring. And it triggered the shit out of me. (does this … Continue reading Feelings – Go Away Please!
I made it through Easter with a smile and grace on the outside. On the inside, I can barely breathe. While I've said this to no one, I honestly don't know how much more I can handle. I feel like I dug a huge pit in the sand and voluntarily jumped in. I then … Continue reading Panic
I will never forget the moment time stopped. It was 4:30 on a Monday afternoon. It was hot, early June. I was deep in thought as I walked my dog. I was thinking about how to get my 11 year old fed and to his baseball game. I was worried he wouldn't get a hit, … Continue reading When Time Stands Still
If you are mired in the clutches of a narcissist you probably have no idea what boundaries are, let alone how to use them. I am a newbie to boundaries so my information is limited, but I am an expert on a lack of boundaries and the end result. Boundaries, if you don't know, are … Continue reading Boundaries Enrich Life
Divorcing A Narcissist I have just come to a divorce settlement with my covert narc (CN). It took almost 3 years, and it was hell. As I get over the constant fear I realize how bad it really was. The most important thing I've learned is this: This was not my fault. I was … Continue reading It Is Not Your Fault
At therapy this week my therapist said "we have to get rid of that inner critic, always putting you down" and the 1st thought that popped into my head was "I know. I'm so stupid for doing that". What a predicament! How can I get rid of the voice that constantly criticizes me, when I'm … Continue reading My Stupid Inner Critic
I kicked out my middle son today. Actually, I gave him several months to work things out, to start helping himself and to stop treating me like shit. When nothing changed, I gave him a month's notice to go. I should be wracked with guilt, but I'm not. I'm relieved. I know it's possible I'll … Continue reading The Covert Narc’s Son
Hip, hip hooray!! I am not lazy, anti-social, or depressed. My exhaustion is real. It comes from my ability to feel what those around me are feeling, pretty much all of the time. It creates what I can only describe as a noise in my mind that sucks all the energy from my body and … Continue reading Empath Fatigue- A Real Thing!