Since I've been diagnosed with PSTD, and am about to embark on treatment specific to this issue, I feel compelled to research what this means. EMDR, the current treatment for PSTD, addresses the connections in the many components of our brain. I will be undergoing the same treatment as a soldier returning from war, … Continue reading The Paradox of Fear
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My Brain on Trauma
This is hard for me to write, hard for me to say, hard for me to admit. I am a perpetual victim. Of my own making. I knew I didn't handle stressful situations well, but I had no idea that I respond to situations like a victim. Before I tell you what happened, I … Continue reading My Brain on Trauma
Please Don’t Ask Me That
I had the opportunity today to work with a friend of mine who is a widow. We both have boys around the same age and in the same school district, so we share many of the same acquaintances, as well as the status of “single mom”. We talk about a variety of issues related to … Continue reading Please Don’t Ask Me That
Volunteer or Martyr?
I have spent alot of time volunteering, because I coached two of my boys in a program called Odyssey of the Mind (OM). Google it if you've never heard of it; it's an amazing experience for students. There were times that I was resentful of what was required of me. Meetings were held at my … Continue reading Volunteer or Martyr?
My Anti-Bucket List
I'd like to start a new trend. People often talk about their bucket list, but very few talk about what they don't want to do. Living with ongoing health issues and limited energy and focus after chemo, I have come to the realization that it is more important for me to not waste time and … Continue reading My Anti-Bucket List
Please Don’t Call Me
I hate talking on the phone. Not a mild dislike, but an intense loathing. It really upsets people, especially those over the age of 30. I was recently told I was harder to reach by phone then Donald Trump, to which I TEXTED "are you sure I'm not really him? Have you ever seen … Continue reading Please Don’t Call Me
Geometry And Yoga
I took remedial Geometry in 10th grade. I'm not sure how they knew this was a terrible subject for me, but they did. Having just come from, and loved, algebra, I wasn't very concerned about Geometry. Imagine my surprise when it just didn't seem to take. Apparently I am missing the spacial awareness chip, so … Continue reading Geometry And Yoga
The Universe or Coincidence?
Today I went to the funeral of a young woman who died of ovarian cancer. She was 36 years old. way too young to die. She did good deeds, she made an impact, she lived every minute of her short life. She started a project thanking cancer researchers via letters from survivors, a project … Continue reading The Universe or Coincidence?
Leave My Attitude Alone
I just finished reading a summation of a celebrities journey with cancer, in which she claims that to survive cancer you must believe you will "win". She went on to say that all of the "survivors" she knew had this belief. I am dumbfounded by this. Of course the women she knows believe they are … Continue reading Leave My Attitude Alone
Cancer Changed Me. Get Used To It.
A friend of mine is “battling” breast cancer, and I spent some time with her today, running errands, having lunch, chatting. She asked me if I am different after cancer. I told her a few ways I’ve changed, and when I got home I checked my blog to see if I’ve written about this. I … Continue reading Cancer Changed Me. Get Used To It.
Groomed but Escaped 