Part of getting divorced is cutting expenses. As a result, I no longer have cable, which has led to Netflix binges. I've just finished the first season of the Gilmore Girls, which I had never watched before, but am completely taken by. When I first started watching I was very unsure of Lorelai. She seemed … Continue reading Where is My Lorelai Gilmore Chip?
Wake Up Gurl!
Enough
Remember the scene in Love Actually when Mark, who's in love with his best friends wife, Juliet, tells her, via signs, that he is moving on? As he walks away, he says "enough", and it is clear that he has turned the corner. He is done wallowing, he is over pining away for her. Today, … Continue reading Enough
Regrets
For some time after my separation I told myself I had no regrets. I felt such shame and humiliation, this was my only way to reserve what little self-respect I had. What better way to protect your ego then to believe that you have No Regrets, I would do it all the same given the … Continue reading Regrets
Snow, Single Mothers’, Alzheimer’s & Guilt
The largest blizzard I ever lived through was in 1996. I was 7 months pregnant, lived with my ex, our 3 year old, and my 7 year old step son. We lived in a twin on a block made up of other twins, most of which were filled with young children. It was a great … Continue reading Snow, Single Mothers’, Alzheimer’s & Guilt
Good Choice, Bad Choice?
I am a huge fan of Brene Brown. If you aren't familiar, google Brene Brown Ted talks to get an idea of who she is and what her message is. I'm currently reading her most recent book, Rising Strong, which is resonating with me even more then her others; all of which have changed me! … Continue reading Good Choice, Bad Choice?
Petrification: Can I Break Out?
I've been trying to put into words what is happening to me right now, and I've been complete unsuccessful. Last week I realized that I feel dirty. My skin feels sullied, and I want to tear it off. At first I thought it was just my skin, and that if I could cure that … Continue reading Petrification: Can I Break Out?
Boundaries Are Self-Compassion
Boundaries are fairly new to me. I can count on 1 hand the number of times I've set them in recent years. They are: When I let my ex know I wouldn't allow him to cheat on me anymore. When I let my children know that human emotions, good and bad, are normal, and we … Continue reading Boundaries Are Self-Compassion
Volunteer or Martyr?
I have spent alot of time volunteering, because I coached two of my boys in a program called Odyssey of the Mind (OM). Google it if you've never heard of it; it's an amazing experience for students. There were times that I was resentful of what was required of me. Meetings were held at my … Continue reading Volunteer or Martyr?
I’m Just So Hurt
It has been 1 year, 8 months & 10 days since my ex asked for a divorce, swearing there wasn't another woman. It's been 1 year, 8 months & 15 days since I found proof of the other woman. It's been 1 year, 9 months and 12 days since he admitted, in writing, that there … Continue reading I’m Just So Hurt
Empath Fatigue- A Real Thing!
Hip, hip hooray!! I am not lazy, anti-social, or depressed. My exhaustion is real. It comes from my ability to feel what those around me are feeling, pretty much all of the time. It creates what I can only describe as a noise in my mind that sucks all the energy from my body and … Continue reading Empath Fatigue- A Real Thing!
Groomed but Escaped 