Listening with My Heart

My family has fractured because of this election.  Half of the family is on one side, half on the other, and there are people no longer speaking to each other.  I'm afraid that if someone dies we'll have to have  Trump - Anti-Trump sides in the church, with  Ushers  asking  which side we belong to. … Continue reading Listening with My Heart

The Gift of Me

  Tonight, after a particularly contentious legal day,  I sit writing. I am surrounded by the candles and Christmas decorations I've accumulated through the years, and wondering what they mean.  This is my 3rd Christmas separated, and it is the hardest, and I've been pondering this.  I'm sitting at my dining room table with the … Continue reading The Gift of Me

I Love My Job

How goofy is this:  I Love the part time job I've been given at my yoga studio.   I love having somewhere to be.  I love people smiling at me, and saying Thank You.  I love the owners saying I'm doing a good job, and a client saying "I'm so happy I got you on … Continue reading I Love My Job

Introverts as Public Speakers?

http://www.drmichellemazur.com/2013/12/introverts-make-the-best-speakers.html   I gave a speech this weekend and, not to brag but... I nailed it!  I used to speak in front of groups all the time in my work as an HR Director and Training Program developer.  I always thought I was a good speaker because I'm an extrovert. Recently though, I've come to … Continue reading Introverts as Public Speakers?

Balls to the Wall

As I write I realize I use phrases all of the time, yet I'm unsure what they mean.  I know how and when to use them, but not why.  So it was that, when I decided to tell my attorney "let's go balls to the wall" that I felt I had to look up the … Continue reading Balls to the Wall

Support Is Everything

I learned a valuable lesson this summer while surfing.  I learned that without the proper support, I am doomed to failure, but with the proper support I am destined to succeed. Here's what happened. I've always wanted to surf.   Last summer, as I sat on the beach watching my kids surf,  I decided it … Continue reading Support Is Everything

Do I Owe You?

I have a plethora of family and friends who have been stepping up to help me over the past 3 years.  I am grateful, but nervous.  In my world, when someone helps you, you owe them.  Some of the people who have stepped up, when I've expressed concern that I can never pay them back, … Continue reading Do I Owe You?

Delusion, Meet Reality

I am surrounded by well meaning family & friends, all of whom want the best for me.   I am also part of a yoga community, which wants the best for everyone, and I belong to cancer and divorce support groups on FB.  All of these sources together have thrust me into a world of delusion, … Continue reading Delusion, Meet Reality

My Stupid Inner Critic

At therapy this week my therapist said "we have to get rid of that inner critic, always putting you down" and the 1st thought that popped into my head was "I know.  I'm so stupid for doing that".   What a predicament!  How can I get rid of the voice that constantly criticizes me, when I'm … Continue reading My Stupid Inner Critic

How To Call Dibs on a Parking Spot

Apparently, this is confusing to some people.  Some seem to believe it is done with their middle finger, not their turn signal.  This is Wrong. Which leads me to further evidence of my recovery. Yesterday I was in a parking lot and I spied a spot, so I headed over to it.  As I approached … Continue reading How To Call Dibs on a Parking Spot