The Worse thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth. I recently read these words, by an author I don't know, and I've been thinking about them. I imagine in a healthy relationship this might be true. I've not been in a healthy relationship, so I don't know. Do healthy couples … Continue reading The Lie Sundae: The Narc’s Weapon
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Beginnings & Endings: Clues to Narcissism
I have 23 years of a relationship with a covert narcissist (CN) to dissect, and the question I keep asking my therapist is "are you sure?" How can you be sure he really is a CN, and I'm not just re-writing our story? What proof do you have that I didn't deserve to be treated … Continue reading Beginnings & Endings: Clues to Narcissism
Sex & The Covert Narc
When I first met my narc, the sex (after the 1st few extremely awkward and unsatisfying pairings) was amazing! It was unlike any I'd ever had before. It actually felt as if our souls were merging during the act. He often said that afterwards, that it had been the best sex he'd ever had, … Continue reading Sex & The Covert Narc
My Story
What I Thought Happened I met my narc in 1988. I worked with him for 6 months, during which time I came to see him as a total dick. He treated me and other employees terribly. He was rude, sullen, uncooperative and unavailable, until he needed me for something. Once he realized I could help … Continue reading My Story
Are We Victims?
I had my 2nd EMDR session on Tuesday. As successful as the 1st one was, the 2nd one was equally unsuccessful. The week before I felt able to share freely, I held nothing back, and what I shared was genuine and authentic to me. This week, it felt forced. I felt like I was reaching … Continue reading Are We Victims?
Dating After Divorce
Every once in a while I think about dating. Actually, I think about being in a relationship - not dating. I've never been a dater. I'm a relationship girl. I had 2 long term relationships before my marriage. Before, and in between those relationship I went on as few dates as possible. The only … Continue reading Dating After Divorce
I’m Just So Hurt
It has been 1 year, 8 months & 10 days since my ex asked for a divorce, swearing there wasn't another woman. It's been 1 year, 8 months & 15 days since I found proof of the other woman. It's been 1 year, 9 months and 12 days since he admitted, in writing, that there … Continue reading I’m Just So Hurt
Freedom From Waiting
I have a bowl of "Angel Cards": cards with inspirational words. The premise is that we all have angels watching over us, and they will guide our hand to the card we need that day. I don't know if that part is true or not, but I do know that whatever word I pull … Continue reading Freedom From Waiting
Vomitus Invitationus
My mother always says that I make friends where ever I go, and this is true. I have no trouble meeting new people, and I can become fast friends with some. In fact, I become such close friends with some that I do what I call “vomiting invitations”. I have been known to invite virtual … Continue reading Vomitus Invitationus
Groomed but Escaped 