(background info- my brothers beach house is next door to my mothers, and there is constant competition about who is staying with her, and she gets pretty crazy when I stay with my brother, which I do most often because, well...she's sort of crazy) Five years later there are still times I can't breathe. … Continue reading The Permanence Of Heartbreak
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Anxiety
I've been experiencing increasing anxiety lately and today I sat down and gave some serious thought to why. I realize it is all tied to my taxes........sort of. Tomorrow I have to go to my ex's/our accountants office, , to ask for the signed K-1 and Cost Basis forms for my taxes. The accountant has … Continue reading Anxiety
Panic
I made it through Easter with a smile and grace on the outside. On the inside, I can barely breathe. While I've said this to no one, I honestly don't know how much more I can handle. I feel like I dug a huge pit in the sand and voluntarily jumped in. I then … Continue reading Panic
Swimming in a Sea Of Insanity
“It hurts to look at the clouds, but it also helps, like most things that cause pain.” ― Matthew Quick, The Silver Linings Playbook When my middle son was a toddler he would ask me questions. A lot of questions. Questions I couldn't answer. He didn't ask the usual unanswerable questions, like "why is … Continue reading Swimming in a Sea Of Insanity
How to Lose Your Home To A Narcissist
Here I sit, on the precipice of a new year, and all I can think is What The Fuck?? How did I get here? How did I become the one people whisper about in the grocery store. “Oh, you remember her, she’s about to lose her house, and I know...it makes no sense. How did … Continue reading How to Lose Your Home To A Narcissist
Funny Story About Manners
When my ex was divorcing his 1st wife, and in the years that followed since they have a child together, she would write to him and always say Hi X, blah, blah, blah. Hope all is well. Thanks, Y. Generally, these letter would involve an issue, because the only time she would write … Continue reading Funny Story About Manners
Groomed but Escaped 