I spent 24 with a covert narcissist. This was after growing up with a covert narcissist and an alcoholic. I am 6 years, 3 months from the date my covert narc moved out, and I believe I am now in the final stage of recovery. Of course I thought I was in the last … Continue reading Life After Long Term Narcissistic Abuse
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The Tractor
Him He pulled up to the house in his Cadillac. He parked it on the street and checked the carport to make sure she wasn’t home. He caressed the car as he left it, filled with pride that it was his, reveling in the fact that while she would have fought against its purchase, she … Continue reading The Tractor
I Know I Look Good
At the age of 35, shortly after giving birth to my second son, I rolled in to my "journey" of disability. I strapped on my roller blades, something I'd done a thousand times before, but, before I'd pushed off from my car, lost my breath. This was my first full blown asthma attack, and … Continue reading I Know I Look Good
Swimming in a Sea Of Insanity
“It hurts to look at the clouds, but it also helps, like most things that cause pain.” ― Matthew Quick, The Silver Linings Playbook When my middle son was a toddler he would ask me questions. A lot of questions. Questions I couldn't answer. He didn't ask the usual unanswerable questions, like "why is … Continue reading Swimming in a Sea Of Insanity
The Magic of the Covert Narcissist
It's like magic, what the covert narcissist (CN) does to your head. Today is a great example of how it works. I started my day feeling pretty good. I felt strong, capable, not bad looking for my age, and, believe it or not, Happy. I went to yoga and saw people who I feel … Continue reading The Magic of the Covert Narcissist
Groomed but Escaped 