A few weeks ago I had a seizure. I was sitting in my kitchen with my 17 year old son, working on his college applications. The next thing I knew there were strange men trying to kidnap me (paramedics) and, when I was finally full aware, I was sitting in an ambulance on my way … Continue reading The Practice of Medicine
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Cheating Narcissist
Funny story...... My ex recently changed his job. He told our son that he was doing it because he wouldn't have to work weekends, and would have every other Friday off. Lo and behold, he's now working every Friday & every weekend. My son told me this when I asked how he gets to work … Continue reading Cheating Narcissist
Balance & the Narcissist
Balance has been on my mind lately, primarily because my lack of it keeps launching me down stairs. After 6 weeks laid up with a broken foot, I'm determined to regain my balance. My physical therapist assures me that despite the neuropathy in my feet I can, and will, regain balance. I almost didn't go … Continue reading Balance & the Narcissist
Acting, Lies & the Narcissist
My youngest son drove me to a Dr's appointment tonight. It's often illuminating spending time with captive children, and tonight did not disappoint. My son has recently started working as a cashier in the market down the street from our home. While waiting for my prescription, he launched into a tirade about how much … Continue reading Acting, Lies & the Narcissist
Narcissists Seal The Deal
I had lunch with my eldest son yesterday. It turned out to be serendipitous that I asked him to meet me for lunch, because he had something to share with me. His dad, my ex, is having a big party tonight where he intends to propose marriage to his paramour. My son was very nervous … Continue reading Narcissists Seal The Deal
Gaslighting: The Gift that Keeps on Giving
I was with my parents the other day. I don't recall the exact conversation, but I remember my mother saying "why on earth would you think that about yourself?" I told her it is hard to shake negative self-thoughts when it is all I've heard for over 20 years. She replied "what could … Continue reading Gaslighting: The Gift that Keeps on Giving
It Is Not Your Fault
Divorcing A Narcissist I have just come to a divorce settlement with my covert narc (CN). It took almost 3 years, and it was hell. As I get over the constant fear I realize how bad it really was. The most important thing I've learned is this: This was not my fault. I was … Continue reading It Is Not Your Fault
The Covert Narc’s Son
I kicked out my middle son today. Actually, I gave him several months to work things out, to start helping himself and to stop treating me like shit. When nothing changed, I gave him a month's notice to go. I should be wracked with guilt, but I'm not. I'm relieved. I know it's possible I'll … Continue reading The Covert Narc’s Son
Scapegoats
a person or group made to bear the blame for others or to suffer in their place. 'Thrown to the Wolves" Boundaries. Scapegoats. Abuse. How do I put these words together in a way that rings true to me? How do I get past the idea that I'm "bashing" family, "attacking people who did … Continue reading Scapegoats
Breaking Up With My Oncologist
I've decided to ditch my oncologist (gyn/oc = gynecological oncologist). The protocol for high grade serous epithelial stage 3B ovarian cancer is 5 years of follow-ups. During those 5 year Dr's are supposed to see you every 3 months, draw a CA125 every 3 months and, if there is a rise in the CA 125 … Continue reading Breaking Up With My Oncologist
Groomed but Escaped 