Last night I had the following dream - I was asleep in a highrise apartment. In the next bedroom was my step-son, age 5. I woke up and my ex (in the dream we are still together) is in bed with me, trying to cuddle. I ask him "what are you doing here? I thought … Continue reading Trapped
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A Letter to the Narcissists Mother
As I near the end of my association with my ex narc I am pondering what I'd like to say to his mother. Over the past 3 years there have been many a harsh word I would have loved to have shared with her. As I see the end on the horizon, I've come up … Continue reading A Letter to the Narcissists Mother
Cancer Saved My Life
I received the transcript from my spouse's deposition today, and I started reading it. I was floored on the 1st page, when he spoke about how our divorce came about. I remember the moment as if it happened yesterday. It is forever seared into my brain. It was 9:20AM. I was in the kitchen preparing … Continue reading Cancer Saved My Life
Sex & The Covert Narc
When I first met my narc, the sex (after the 1st few extremely awkward and unsatisfying pairings) was amazing! It was unlike any I'd ever had before. It actually felt as if our souls were merging during the act. He often said that afterwards, that it had been the best sex he'd ever had, … Continue reading Sex & The Covert Narc
Sidestepping the Pain
I don't want to write about pain anymore. Yes, I am in pain. Every time I think it's gone, it resurfaces, and I wallow. And I'm so, so tired of it! If the only way out is through it, I guess I won't get out, because I'm not going through it anymore. I'm going to … Continue reading Sidestepping the Pain
Groomed but Escaped 